It seems the fears that kept me from stepping out, taking risks, and content to live safe are the same ones that try to dissuade me from this faith journey of pursuing the dreams God gave me.
It really comes down to my limitations and weaknesses.
"You aren't strong enough, brave enough, smart enough, organized enough, popular enough, good enough."
YOU. AREN'T. ENOUGH.
I had to turn a deaf ear to these thoughts just to get my bags packed for this trip. With every item I carefully placed, planned and put in my bag, I affirmed a God who is MORE than enough.
I'm far from home now. There's really no turning back. Maybe if I was alone, but I was foolhardy enough to invite people I love to join me on my journey.
And now I face the inescapable reality of my weaknesses.
I run low on strength, courage, wisdom, organization, favor and "goodness" every day.
And I'm realizing it's true . . on my own, I am NOT enough.
But in the face of my weaknesses and fears, I'm slowly realizing this is part of the plan.
God didn't overlook my weaknesses when He took stock of my strengths.
In fact, according to Paul the Apostle, my weaknesses may be what qualified me for this God-sized dream in the first place.
"So I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan’s angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become."
~2 Corinthians 12:7-10, The Message
Talk about a paradigm shift.
Appreciating the "gift"?!
But then I realize how consistent, how compatible, this paradigm is with the reality of my weaknesses and desires to see God's strength.
On my BEST days, I can't part a sea, make bread fall from Heaven, shut the mouths of lions, foil the plans of murderers, show perfect love, and redeem a world full of pain.
If my weaknesses are the invitation for His strength, then yes, they are a gift I can't wait to unwrap!
Thank you to Melissa at Empowering Lives 4 Him
for sharing this song!
Labels: God-sized Dreams